So as I said before, Im on a new "life change" diet and exercise program that I created for myself. I decided since Im trying to create a life long change and create new and better habits, that I wanted a doable goal of 2 lbs per week. well, it'll be 1 month this sunday, and I have already met my goal. 8 lbs already!!!!! woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woo!!! lol! ugh, im going to be a skinny bitch and its going to be great. Im so excited to make positive changes in my life and as always I am always excited to see what tomorrow has to bring!
- a skinnier shandra
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Disgruntled!
I continue to be dissapointed by people's actions, and angry with myself for allowing them to affect me. I can put on a non-caring face really easily and convincingly, but truthfully, I am a big emotional sponge. I take things to heart, I take things personally, I over-analyze, and I cant seem to help it. Part of me wants to just act like an adult and let this crap fly right on by, and the other half half wants to stand up for morals and principles and self respect and chew some ass. I beleive that people act maliciously towards others out of their own pain and anger, and not because they truly want to be assholes. I do think that people intend on hurting others sometimes, but only for the wrong reasons. So, I am trying to just see things from other peoples points of view, but there is a point where you have to lay the smack down in order to protect yourself.
This is just not cutting it for me. I really want to have a big fat bitchfest with all the people acting like a bunch of dicks right now. grr. It is sooo a full moon right now. I feel incredibly irritable and out of whack, as I am sure others are, which is a stupid combination. hmmm, im not really sure what to do with myself right now.
This is just not cutting it for me. I really want to have a big fat bitchfest with all the people acting like a bunch of dicks right now. grr. It is sooo a full moon right now. I feel incredibly irritable and out of whack, as I am sure others are, which is a stupid combination. hmmm, im not really sure what to do with myself right now.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
loving my garden!
So Ive really gotten into gardening since we started landscaping our new house. Its like interior decorating, but outside. What could be more fun??? Actually, I can think of a few not so fun landscaping incidents. Like when we were ripping out 40 year old bushes in the front of our house, and hit our main drainage pipe. Instead of spending the day planning our new landscape, we spend the day repairing a broken shit pipe....not so much fun. Apparently there is only one pipe that goes off of a house, and we hit it. Or the day we spend 11 hours digging, preparing, planting and wood chipping until we couldnt move. I swear, the next day I couldnt even lower myself onto the toilet without excrutiating pain.
In the end, its the sweat, and arguing and sore backs that make it all the better. Im really proud of the hard work that we have put in. Its the outcome from things like this that makes working three jobs worth it. I love the way that life progresses. Every year that goes by, I feel more fulfilled and closer to my goals. Ahhhh, achievment is a good feeling. Im glad to have it back. Here are a few pics of my prettiest flowers.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
how do you like these apples?
So anyone who knows me well, would know that I feel passionately about certain things. Human and civil rights, equality, marriage, etc etc. I guess you surround yourself with people who are aligned with and accepting of your values and principles. Maybe, I lost sight of reality because I've chosen to surround myself with wonderful, open minded people, who share my views.
So it comes as a surprise to me that in the year 2008, more than 230 years after this countries declaration of independance from religious tyranny, and after building a country based on the framework of freedom and independance for ALL people..........."Four score and seven years ago our fathers brought forth on this continent, a new nation, conceived in liberty, and dedicated to the proposition that all men are created equal."-Abe Lincoln............ that there are still people that not only want to deny these basic rights, but want to deny them in the name of religion, and fully believe they are morally and ethically justified in doing so.
Helloooo!!!! Am I the only person that sees this to be a BIG rediculous problem? It not only makes me angry, but sad, really really sad, that there are Americans who defend the betrayal of rights to even ONE person. Its ass backwards! Im so, SOO tired of people calling on religion to back there beliefs. Religion has NO place in this government. I have no problem with anyones religious beliefs and consider myself a deeply spiritual person, but not my, nor anyone elses religion has anything to with the laws in this country! Besides, if your going to pull religion as your backing, then you'd better be sure your applying it to everything. If you beleive abortion is wrong by religious or moral basis, then you should want to save an unborn child thats going to be gay right??? or would you say that makes it a little different? lame. If we shouldnt allow gay people to walk down the street holding hands bc someone might be offended, then we shouldnt allow ugly people to either, bc some people dont want to see them either.
To deny a gay couple the same rights as a straight couple because its wrong, according to the Bible, is assanine. Period. Furthermore, to deny the rights on the basis of morals, would then mean that the government should impose the same regulations to anyone deemed wrong, immoral, or "less than" by any other individual. If that were so......we wouldnt be INDEPENDANT!!!
anyway, my intention here isnt to attack or anger anyone, I just need to blow some steam, otherwise I think I'm going to inleash all my thoughts on the next unsuspecting person who brings this up. Maybe im just hoping there are other people out there that have some compassion, understanding and hope for a better future.
My beliefs do not alienate or discriminate against anyone. What I hope for is the same rights and treatment for everyone. So if Ive offended you, its not because ive been cruel or unfair, its because you should be offended, as well as ashamed and imberressed.
So it comes as a surprise to me that in the year 2008, more than 230 years after this countries declaration of independance from religious tyranny, and after building a country based on the framework of freedom and independance for ALL people..........."Four score and seven years ago our fathers brought forth on this continent, a new nation, conceived in liberty, and dedicated to the proposition that all men are created equal."-Abe Lincoln............ that there are still people that not only want to deny these basic rights, but want to deny them in the name of religion, and fully believe they are morally and ethically justified in doing so.
Helloooo!!!! Am I the only person that sees this to be a BIG rediculous problem? It not only makes me angry, but sad, really really sad, that there are Americans who defend the betrayal of rights to even ONE person. Its ass backwards! Im so, SOO tired of people calling on religion to back there beliefs. Religion has NO place in this government. I have no problem with anyones religious beliefs and consider myself a deeply spiritual person, but not my, nor anyone elses religion has anything to with the laws in this country! Besides, if your going to pull religion as your backing, then you'd better be sure your applying it to everything. If you beleive abortion is wrong by religious or moral basis, then you should want to save an unborn child thats going to be gay right??? or would you say that makes it a little different? lame. If we shouldnt allow gay people to walk down the street holding hands bc someone might be offended, then we shouldnt allow ugly people to either, bc some people dont want to see them either.
To deny a gay couple the same rights as a straight couple because its wrong, according to the Bible, is assanine. Period. Furthermore, to deny the rights on the basis of morals, would then mean that the government should impose the same regulations to anyone deemed wrong, immoral, or "less than" by any other individual. If that were so......we wouldnt be INDEPENDANT!!!
anyway, my intention here isnt to attack or anger anyone, I just need to blow some steam, otherwise I think I'm going to inleash all my thoughts on the next unsuspecting person who brings this up. Maybe im just hoping there are other people out there that have some compassion, understanding and hope for a better future.
My beliefs do not alienate or discriminate against anyone. What I hope for is the same rights and treatment for everyone. So if Ive offended you, its not because ive been cruel or unfair, its because you should be offended, as well as ashamed and imberressed.
Here goes my diet-exercise plan!
I decided recently, partly because summer clothes really suck, that ive spent plenty enough time being fat. Its really easy to get fat, but its really hard to forget what its like to be skinny. Really hard. I know in my heart that Ill never be content or happy in this life as long as im overweight. Its a really hard thing to talk about with anyone around me because, most people have no idea what im going through, and therefor have an opinion that isnt only unhelpful, but usually just ticks me off. I figured that if I blog about it, then the only people who are really going to read it anyway are the people who care enough to look.
Long story short, I have started a new diet and exercise plan that I am very serious about. As of this past sunday i had already lost 4lbs, after week one. My goal is to consistently lose 2lbs per week for the next 16 weeks. Thats about 35lbs by the end of september. Its totally doable considering I have about 110 to lose total. yikes! Anyway, the more things I do, such as blog, that remind me of my goal, and hold me accountable, the more successfel I beleive I will be.
I have this issue with people telling me what to do. For example, if I decide there is some task or goal I want to achieve and I set out to do it, and then someone else comes along and tells me I should do it, I no longer want to do it. Its like I just cant stand to give people the satisfaction. God I need therapy. Anyway, my point is, that Im in a new place right now where I feel that I can do this all on my own, which is really the only way that I want to do it. OKay, so thats about it. Wishing myself luck!!!! Im going to be a skinny bitch someday soon!!!!
Long story short, I have started a new diet and exercise plan that I am very serious about. As of this past sunday i had already lost 4lbs, after week one. My goal is to consistently lose 2lbs per week for the next 16 weeks. Thats about 35lbs by the end of september. Its totally doable considering I have about 110 to lose total. yikes! Anyway, the more things I do, such as blog, that remind me of my goal, and hold me accountable, the more successfel I beleive I will be.
I have this issue with people telling me what to do. For example, if I decide there is some task or goal I want to achieve and I set out to do it, and then someone else comes along and tells me I should do it, I no longer want to do it. Its like I just cant stand to give people the satisfaction. God I need therapy. Anyway, my point is, that Im in a new place right now where I feel that I can do this all on my own, which is really the only way that I want to do it. OKay, so thats about it. Wishing myself luck!!!! Im going to be a skinny bitch someday soon!!!!
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